Blogspot/Tumblr

So I've decided to put my tumblr back into effect lol. It's been seven months since I've used it, but the photos from the tumblrs I follow are uber inspiring haha. So I'll be using my blogger for blogging about random shiiiet, and my tumblr will be strictly used for pictures, quotes, and music lol. Follow it if you have one retronerdjudon.tumblr.com

Shocking Reality

Gosh today has just been filled with excessive random thoughts about what could/what should've been. Yesterday I heard that my cousin passed away. His name was Logan and he was fourteen years old. I didn't really know him; I knew who we was, but we didn't know each other on a personal level; yet, it still feels like I lost someone close to me. It just seems entirely unfair because he was so young :/. I don't think anyone should be taken away when they haven't even started living, but it really made me think a lot. I've been tossing thoughts about what could have been done, so that it wouldn't have ended the way it did, trying not to put blame on others, but finding it hard to…I don't know what to think I just feel bad for everyone that knew him a lot better than I did, and that I should have made an effort to be there for him. This whole thing really made me think about how short life is and how no one should take any second for granted. This whole thing made me realize not to put things off for tomorrow because it's never promised, and motivate me not to be afraid to pursue my dreams. R.I.P. little cousin, I know we didn't know each other, but we're still family, I hope you're in a better place now.

If You Really Knew Me

Hey readers! Geeze it's been such a long time since I've been able to post lol. Well obviously my summer has been super busy, but even after all the traveling and hectic schedules I have still had time to squeeze in some time for my shows :). One show in particular has caught my interest, 'If You Really Knew Me.' Amidst all the scripted, boring, and completely fake "reality shows" out there this one is able to stand alone :). It's such an eye-opening show that you'd be a monster not to feel anything when watching it lol. A quick overview of the show is this: an organization goes around to high schools which have particular problems with bullying, social outcasting, cliques, and just your basic run-of-the-mill problems most people face in high school. The organization pulls together a portion of the student body and puts them into something they call "challenge day." Here they allow students to step outside of their comfort zone and let their fellow students get a taste of what it's like to be them. It's insane and so awe inspiring the things some of these students go through every day. One guys mother left and he never heard from her, and he said it was hard not knowing where she is, what she's doing, or if she's even alive. He lost his grandmother, who was basically his mother, and to see him having to go through all of that alone because he always puts a smile on his face at school, so no one would know anything was wrong is just insane. Another girl lived with a family friend she calls her aunt because her father kicked her out and told her she was the worst daughter, and even said that she was making up her mental disorder just to get attention. Like seriously this show just makes me want to make a difference because of everything that these people go through. The biggest worry I had in high school was what I was going to wear the next day. If you guys haven't already, you should definitely check this show out because it really makes you think about life. On a lighter note, I start school in a couple of weeks YAY! :D, so I'll be able to post regularly :). Stay safe readers, love you guys

-Judon

Los Angeles vs. San Francisco

So there's been a recent dilemma affecting my life lately: where I'm going to go to school after I'm done here. For so long I've been convinced that it would be F.I.D.M. in L.A., but due to recent happenings there's something that's been pushing me towards San Francisco. FIDM offered me a sweet deal: go to school for a year and a half, but lately something's been pushing me to go to school in S.F. After visiting it I've been seriously considering it, and it's tearing my head apart because I only have 6 months left. It's funny how people always tell you to look out for signs to guide you to make the right choice; well I've been getting a lot lately, and they're not helping at all lol. My heart and head keep saying Los Angeles, but everywhere I go there's something to do with San Francisco: a t-shirt that my aunt wore when she came to see me, a coffee mug on the counter, even a catalog book/countless calls/emails from Academy of Arts University, not to mention countless commercials on the t.v. every time I think about which choice to make. I guess I should make my choice soon, but how do I know if I'll make the right one? :/

-Judon